My very first entry

[luciushakuro]

I just discovered this site today. It's one of those days where you are searching for a specific question, and stumble upon a blog, wondering, 'Wow, what is this?'

It’s been very interesting, hopping from other people’s journals here and there. Their lives are curious, in both wonderful and concerning ways. I will attempt to make mine readable, though aesthetic choices tend to tempt me from time to time. 

What will I use this for? Well, I do have quite a few ideas:

• Art/writing journal
  • I want to keep a record of my art and writing, to see my progress over time as I study more concepts. Furthermore, it would be fun seeing my original characters develop and change. Sometime I beat myself down for not being good enough, but seeing my creations out there makes me feel happy and accomplished. Making design that others are interested in and love instills a sense of pride within me. 
• Self-improvement log
  • For nearly as long as I can recall, I have suffered from mental issues, primarily depression as resultant of severe emotional neglect in my early childhood. I wish to enjoy life and live it the fullest everyday. I want to look forward to the next day and feel that sense of joy as I continue to move closer towards my goals - after all, it is about the journey and not the destination. To fill my life with colour, a million memories mending the emptiness of my heart. The vast loneliness that roots in myself will be cut down and replaced with a will to live.
  • I will do this by making myself accountable for my goals, day by day, week by week. I have a tendency to overestimate what I can do in a day, and underestimate what I can do in a week. Self reflection is the most powerful.  
• Book/movie reviews + games & fandom stuff
  • When I record the media I have consumed, my memories grow stronger. My sense of existence grows more meaningful and I can connect with others better, fostering that feeling of being part of a community. Subsequently, as I consume more ideas, my mind becomes more expansive and open. I have a personality, a life, and I must remind myself of that. 
• Miscellaneous happenings of my life
  • Often I forget. I forget about my accomplishments, the happy events that have occurred. The little things slip by, and it piles up into a mound of what is perceived as nothingness to me. But that isn't true. Every day I live through accumulates into the curious existence called 'my life', just like how the salt and pepper of a simple stew. (A quote I do still remember, albeit not fully.)

Comments

Hello!

[ysabetwordsmith]

>> I just discovered this site today. It's one of those days where you are searching for a specific question, and stumble upon a blog, wondering, 'Wow, what is this?'<<

If you're new here, then you might like newcomers which provides resources about Dreamwidth. You can introduce yourself in the Friending Meme if you wish.

>> What will I use this for? Well, I do have quite a few ideas: <<

Some people like recurring posts to organize a blog with multiple topics. Frex, you might designate one day for art and another for writing, and then readers would know to check for that thing on that day.

>>I want to keep a record of my art and writing, to see my progress over time as I study more concepts.<<

Go for it! Both of those are popular topics on this platform. See Art communities and Writing communities.

>> Furthermore, it would be fun seeing my original characters develop and change.<<

Tracking can be very useful. goals_on_dw has trackers for all kinds of different things.

>> Sometime I beat myself down for not being good enough, but seeing my creations out there makes me feel happy and accomplished. Making design that others are interested in and love instills a sense of pride within me. <<

Remember that if you finish a thing, you're ahead of all the people who didn't get that far.

>>For nearly as long as I can recall, I have suffered from mental issues, primarily depression as resultant of severe emotional neglect in my early childhood.<<

Alas! A lot of people talk about that kind of stuff here. Some have it on a special filter, or make their blog friends only.

>>To fill my life with colour, a million memories mending the emptiness of my heart.<<

Good plan.

>> I will do this by making myself accountable for my goals, day by day, week by week. I have a tendency to overestimate what I can do in a day, and underestimate what I can do in a week. Self reflection is the most powerful. <<

For structured objectives, goals_on_dw and journalsandplanners are good in general. Some communities focus on more specific goals, like getyourwordsout. Watch for events and open signups on fandomcalendar.

If that gets overwhelming, consider the Just One Thing posts on awesomeers. There you can claim credit for doing anything, small or large, planned or spontaneous.

>>When I record the media I have consumed, my memories grow stronger. My sense of existence grows more meaningful and I can connect with others better, fostering that feeling of being part of a community. Subsequently, as I consume more ideas, my mind becomes more expansive and open. <<

That's good progress. There are lots of communities for fandom and reviews and such. You might also like the Fannish 50 challenge.

>> Often I forget. I forget about my accomplishments <<

Oh yeah. I never realized how much I've gotten done until I try to catch up someone else on it. Keeping a goals list helps, because I can see how many I've already met.

Re: Hello!

[luciushakuro]

Omg ty for the helpful resources!

Re: Hello!

[ysabetwordsmith]

*bow, flourish* Happy to be of service.